Saturday, August 27, 2016

that moment

that moment
that moment
that moment
that moment

i took a breathe
i took a chance

to believe
for an instance that
(*breathes in)
i might find one
capable of
love

loving me

i am worthy of love
am i worthy of love

i deserve to be with someone who
wants
to be by my side

instead
instead
instead
instead

i spent nights
broken
not crying
in bubble wrap

my eyes are dry
as they were at 14
my lips purse
not uttering a sound

i am not sad
i am not angry
i am not bitter

i am
i am
i am
i am

i’ve forgotten
what it is suppose to
feel
like

is this bodhichitta?

tomorrow
tomorrow
tomorrow
tomorrow

today
i cannot love
today
love hurts
today
you do not love me
today
i do not matter

today
i feel
tomorrow
i am

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