Tuesday, August 9, 2016

Oxygen

Prompt: Maybe we feel empty because we leave pieces of ourselves in everything we used to love. - R.m. drake

we tried to breathe each other in
oxygen
after swimming too long underwater

fragments of trauma
exploding into the
recesses
of our souls

i awoke alone today
heart heavy with the
weight
of the world

remembrance
of that last
loneliness
as you lay right next to me
untouchable 

it reminded me of

but that is another story.

my heart is fire
lusting to feel again
to fill me with
you

this somehow
replaced
my lust to fill me with
me

this heart burns
drunk on the idea that
love
might heal these
wounds

that i might find solace in a
kiss
that i might find someone
who will
hold me
when i am small

a person who
can understand
if you pet porcupines in the right way
they are actually very soft

people do not understand
porcupines
so they became
enraged
when they get pricked
not realizing
they are not
loving
petting
them correctly

as i await
unanswered texts
i feel/fill with
dread

i realize
it is not because
i am afraid
to be alone

i dread the
reality
that
love

that love is a fallacy

and in the end
we can only be
horrible
to each other
because
because that is all we are
non compos mentis




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