Thursday, April 18, 2013

This Facebook experiment

I had a facebook experiment to stop hiding. I removed most of the restrictions I had set up. This Facebook experiment is over. Maybe it was all the nightmares last night. Or how I am struggling with having so many amazing people in my life that feed my soul then I turn back to the social justice work I do and feel completely erasured, invisible and unappreciated. Maybe I am finally getting what unhealthy relationships look like on a organizational level. Is there a word for that? But it's cool, whatever, makes it easier for me to leave right? Go find people who want and appreciate my skills? I feel so empty & lonely even surrounded by people. I feel like I am talking to myself (online) then folks tell me that they read something & I'm like that's cool, you can comment to, then I don't feel like I am talking to myself. So I am leaving Facebook because of the trolls. I am tired of all this superficial bs. I am lonely but I will choose to be alone. I will not choose to belittle myself to get the attention of a bunch of entitled kids who are too busy patting themselves on the back to notice the damage they cause everyone around them. I might be getting old or the anarchist youth of today need a swift kick in the pants. People suck.

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