Saturday, June 28, 2008

Ducks in a row

June 28th- As I walk through the valley of the death I fear no evil. Just popped into my head as I sit down to write this entry. I think because it describes the way you have to relate to people when you are transitioning. You never know how people are going to respond. Those that you think will respond the best, will respond the worse. Those that you think will respond the worse, will respond the best. I was very concerned that my best friend wasn’t really getting it so I was very nervous to tell her. But after speaking with her I realized that she more than got it.

I had a party to celebrate this change in my life. It was a blast. I think anyone who is going to transition should do it. My best friend even drove over three hours to come. We had MANly games like a log splitting contest, pull-up contest, and a push-up contest. We also made a cock and balls piƱata and broke it open in the front yard. If my neighbors didn’t already think I was crazy, I am sure they do now. One of my neighbors stopped by as the lesbians next door were also having a party and the other lesbians down the street were over there. She asked why the party and I told her because I was going to start T. She got excited and said I had to do a shot of this nice tequila she brought from Mexico and you can’t say no to that.

I am hoping to start T next week but I still haven’t heard back from the clinic about my appointment. But I should have all my ducks in order. I’ve got my Benjamin letter and my blood work. So basically all I need is to do the pap and get the prescription filled. I can’t wait to see how soon my voice changes, or even more exciting is the stopping of the feminine hormone time. It makes me crazy.

I am not sure what to think about the societal concept of man but I know what feels right inside. I am excited to redefine what it mean

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